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APED: "better than you"

May 23rd, 2009 (10:41 pm)

I wish I was deep in the desert,
with Bedouins, riding their trails,
or deep in the Amazon jungles
to rescue endangered snails,
or climbing the mountains with a Sherpa who's mad,
or catching wild boars for the zoo,
anything, anywhere's better than here,
and anyone's better than you.

I wish I was on the space station,
going on hard vacuum walks,
or deep in the cruelest of dungeons,
where every door has ten locks,
and my cellmate's a leper who's never once bathed,
and whose fingers are turning to goo --
anything, anywhere's better than here,
and anyone's better than you.

But I'm stuck here with you, and I'm stuck for a while,
and someday I'll be free, and I'll walk out in style,
but there's nowhere to go, and there's nothing to do --
so I wait for a new day, and sit here with you --

I wish I was way out in the ocean,
with hungry sharks swimming around,
who'll come up beneath and get started gobbling
with no warning, nor any sound,
and making the water go deeper than red,
when once it was deeper than blue --
anything, anywhere's better than here,
and anyone's better than you.

Comments

Posted by: Abigail Lynn (abigailynn)
Posted at: May 24th, 2009 04:09 am (UTC)

I think anyone who's ever been in a dysfunctional relationship knows that feeling. This describes that bleakness very well.

Posted by: David Hines (hradzka)
Posted at: May 26th, 2009 01:58 am (UTC)

I have thankfully never been in a relationship like this, but I have been in work situations like it. That's plenty bad enough.

Posted by: Not your everyday Viking angel (shadowvalkyrie)
Posted at: May 24th, 2009 10:11 am (UTC)
excused from saving universes

Love this! Especially the dungeon. With the leper. If you get that feeling, it's really time to leave.

Posted by: David Hines (hradzka)
Posted at: May 26th, 2009 01:58 am (UTC)

Thanks!

Posted by: stalkere (stalkere)
Posted at: May 24th, 2009 10:19 pm (UTC)
So, you've met my ex-wife?

This was a good one...really summed up the last 20 years in a nutshell.
As I put it, I finally realized how bad things had gotten one night, when I looked up at the yellow-green tracer streams over my head, and I realized that I really, really preferred Iraq to going home.

Posted by: David Hines (hradzka)
Posted at: May 26th, 2009 01:59 am (UTC)

If you realize you're not enjoying something as much as you enjoy being shot at, that is a sign of something right there.

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